Well I am back after a week from H**** (In a thread, somewhere TJ asked me why I felt like an Eagle. this was an Eagle week. Having to keep control of myself and everything around me so I did not loose it all) I had a couple of bad days with my class. Lessons that I am preparing for presentations to compare assessment information between classes and schools went terrible. For some reason my class was not listening, or did not follow instructions and everything went out of control there, plus my principal is demanding so much paper work I have more of it on my desk than student work. To top it all off I got a phone call the other evening from my brothers supervisor. He had a major seizure while at work and was rushed to hospital. Out of the blue. He has never had anything like that before. Test have all come back normal so we are not sure why it happened. He has been staying with me the last couple of days, so I can keep an eye on him in case it happens again. He has been told he is not allowed to operate heavy machinery but he really wants to pick up his car and go home, (I believe a car could be considered heavy machinery). I have been trying to explian to him I feel more comfortable with him at my place, because if he goes to his home, an hours drive from my place, he will have no one to check on him if something happens again. But he is an adult, only two years younger than myself, so he can make decisions for himself. I really can not force him to do something he does not want to. Any way my parents arrive back from England/Wales tomorrow so then they can take some of the worry off of my shoulders. Maybe they can convince him he needs to be looked after until he has his visit with the nerologist. OTOH maybe I am being to controlling and should let it all go. (For now Cloud wants to return to Owl mode so she can follow someone who is much stronger than her, someone who knows all the answers and can tell me what to do. Cloud wants to curl into a ball and pretend the world does not exist.) I am off to bed now and will return, to catch up on everything, after I get more than a few hours rest.

FWIW, I have a younger brother like that, so I know how you feel. I'm glad your parents will be coming back and able to help. It sounds like a lousy week. The thing with the assessments is especially annoying, because it sounds like you prepared for that and still were frustrated. Unfortunately, you can't predict how young kids will act. It's the weekend. Have a good sleep, relax and unwind, and hopefully next week will be better.

Oh Cloud! It has been a bad week for you. : spreads love:

Oh Cloudy! I don't have a brother, sisters are bad enough... Hugs for your tough week!

So nobody knows the pleasure of being an only child here?

How are you feeling this morning, CD?

Oh Cloudy, I am so sorry to hear this...how is your brother doing?

Originally posted by Ebonyswanne I don't have a brother, sisters are bad enough...

I always wanted a sister, I thought maybe i could get along better with a sister. Shrugs probably not but...... I also always wanted an older brother, one who could help me complete my homework, not a younger brother who was a pain in the arse. We were always agruing over something. It was not until I was at university I started to see him as a person and not a pain.

Originally posted by Transmute Jun It's the weekend. Have a good sleep, relax and unwind, and hopefully next week will be better.

I have slept, and am trying to unwind by feading through all the posts and fics you have been posting. As for next week being better, that is all I can hope for and all I keep reminding myself about. And the next weekend is Thanksgiving so I will be getting a three day weekend. Can't wait. As for my brother, right now all we can do is wait for his appointment with the nerologist, who will give him some final tests to see if they can find out what caused the seizure. I gather he may have his driving liscence removed until they figure out the cause. *Cloud does not feel the need to curl up in a ball and cry quiet as much. But some nice strong Eagle or Condor arms to hold her would make her feel even better. Some one to say its okay, I will take over now, you can sit back and stop worrying.*

Originally posted by clouddancer But some nice strong Eagle or Condor arms to hold her would make her feel even better. Some one to say its okay, I will take over now, you can sit back and stop worrying.

Don't worry, CD, it will be all right! Here are some from the Eagle and the Condor:

It looks like the Condor could use some of his own. Don't worry Condor, Cloud will be right there.

Originally posted by clouddancer It looks like the Condor could use some of his own. Don't worry Condor, Cloud will be right there.

Funny, I thought he was just waiting for you..... But I'm sure you'll be able to comfort him.

Either way....we will get to snuggle, if we can just get together.

Originally posted by clouddancer Either way....we will get to snuggle, if we can just get together.

Funny, I have the same idea if *I* could ever get togethr with the Condor.... or the Eagle for that matter...

Maybe if you told them you were at a loss in your fic one of them might come to your rescue.

Ooh, I can see it now: TJ mopes at her computer. Oh why can't she figure out an ending to her fic? "Don't worry, TJ!" says Mark re-assuringly. "I know my part has gotten all serious, but it's going to work out just fine, you'll see. But you know, seeing as there's no smut in this one, I'm getting awfully lonely... perhaps you could keep me company for awhile..." Jason pops his head out of the computer screen. "Hey, TJ!" he says. "I know I'm not one of the main characters in this story, but I'd like some smut too! It's the least you can do, seeing as all I'm doing is playing second fiddle to the Eagle in this one!" TJ sits, bewildered and grinning like an idiot, wondering what it was she was thinking before this happened, so that she can re-create this scenario again tomorrow. Suddenly, a pointed purple mask sticks out of TJ's Mac. "You know, I'm a main character in this story, and I think villains deserve smut too!" demands Zoltar. "Nooooooooo!" screams TJ, running in fear. Uh.... where did this go wrong?

Nothing for the Owl??? Maybe the Eagle needs to go flying and the Condor should go to the races would that help you out of your fic problems? And send Zoltar off with Zark, they could eliminate each other.

Originally posted by clouddancer Nothing for the Owl??? Maybe the Eagle needs to go flying and the Condor should go to the races would that help you out of your fic problems? And send Zoltar off with Zark, they could eliminate each other.

Actually, I just finished an interesting Zoltar/Zark bit.... Bwaaaa haaaa haaa..... Racing and flying... if only it were that simple....

I thought maybe you needed the distraction, even if they didn't.

Originally posted by clouddancer I thought maybe you needed the distraction, even if they didn't.

Thank you for the thought.... but I found the distraction.... ping pong!!!!!

BTW TJ, some where you said your fic was 100 pages long already. How long is your longest fic? Or Ebony, what is the length of Lightning so far? I guess my measley 11 page fic is nothing. A bump on the radar. "I don't need to post it where everyone will trip over it." says Cloud trying to find another reason not to post.

*hugs CD* Hopefully things will settle down and you can relax and watch some BOTP?

Oh! yes I have to watch that new DVD. Now I wonder when I will find the time. Maybe after my parents take my brother home today, and I clean up some of the mess around here.

Cloudy I just looked at your post count...I can't type that fats!!!

Originally posted by Ebonyswanne Cloudy I just looked at your post count...I can't type that fats !!!

I wouldn't want to type fat either. But I understood what you meant.

Who types fat???? Are you guys saying that I'm fat?????? Oh... wait... you're saying CD is fat. Well, that's okay then. She's an . (j/k CD.... I'm sure you're not fat at all!)

I am just nicely "overlarge" for my height.

I'm printing off teh piccies and I'm going to do some drawing since I can't sleep! DH is not here and I get insomnia, I am wide awake and it is almost 1.30am

I was up until 2:30 last night trying to reach that magic number. Had to come back today to do it. You are only two away now. You will do it

Originally posted by clouddancer I am just nicely "overlarge" for my height.

Sounds familiar.....

Go Ebony! I went to bed at a normal hour last night and I wake up to find that everyone was partying without me!!!!

But it was not really a party until your Lonnieness arrived.

Originally posted by clouddancer But it was not really a party until your Lonnieness arrived.

Well, I guess I'm just the party girl. Whoo hoo!!!!!

Originally posted by clouddancer I was up until 2:30 last night trying to reach that magic number. Had to come back today to do it. You are only two away now. You will do it

2.30 PM is usualy my sleeping hour. The only thing I'm complaining is that I have to be awake at 6.00 in the morning! Congrats for the posts, CD, you sure typed that fast!

I guess it is all the good company around here. And the fact that TJ and I can "zing" each other with our warped minds.

Yup, that and tring to write something coherent!

Originally posted by clouddancer I guess it is all the good company around here. And the fact that TJ and I can "zing" each other with our warped minds.

I would never zing you, CD.... ony engage in friendly banter that merely shows how much I love you!

Originally posted by amyltrer 2.30 PM is usualy my sleeping hour. The only thing I'm complaining is that I have to be awake at 6.00 in the morning!

Sounds like the Dr. Nambu sleeping schedule!!

Originally posted by Transmute Jun

Originally posted by clouddancer I guess it is all the good company around here. And the fact that TJ and I can "zing" each other with our warped minds.

I would never zing you, CD.... ony engage in friendly banter that merely shows how much I love you!

that is what I mean/meant

Originally posted by clouddancer that is what I mean/meant

I love you too, CD!

CD I sure hope all has calmed down for you. I have never known what it's like to have younger sibs but I do have 3 older bros and one older sis.

Also CD please post your fic at some point, it would be great to read it!

Also I am more of an Owl shape but a Condor at heart!

Originally posted by gatchgirl CD I sure hope all has calmed down for you. I have never known what it's like to have younger sibs but I do have 3 older bros and one older sis.

I always wanted older sibs especially when it came to home work problems and boyfriend problems, especially if I had a brother like the Condor to "chase away all the nasties"

Hey, CD... notice that Gatchgirl wants you to post your fic too!!!!!!!!!

yes I did, but like I said I try to "pretend" to ignore the requests. Although I am not sure how much longer I can. When I am at school I can say yes I am ready to post. As soon as I get home, where my computer and story are.... the fear returns. I hear the criticism and laughter of my classmates as they read and laugh at a story I wrote and left on my desk..... and see the rude comments they wrote all over it.

Originally posted by clouddancer Although I am not sure how much longer I can. When I am at school I can say yes I am ready to post. As soon as I get home, where my computer and story are.... the fear returns. I hear the criticism and laughter of my classmates as they read and laugh at a story I wrote and left on my desk..... and see the rude comments they wrote all over it.

First of all, no one here makes rude comments. And if they did, I would send the Swans over to make them regret it. So there! And, your story is wonderful. There is nothing to criticize. We will not laugh at it but enjoy it. And if someone makes a comment or suggestion, it is because they want to help you make it better, NOT because they don't like it. Am I making sense? I thought had chased all of those voices away. Do I have to send in the ?

Originally posted by clouddancer Although I am not sure how much longer I can. When I am at school I can say yes I am ready to post. As soon as I get home, where my computer and story are.... the fear returns. I hear the criticism and laughter of my classmates as they read and laugh at a story I wrote and left on my desk..... and see the rude comments they wrote all over it.

CD, don'y worry! You will never get negative criticsm. Ever! And if it makes you feel more secure, post it while you are at school. As for your classmates, ask them to write a story by themselves before mocking on outher people ones. And just IGNORE them! Ah, the only thing that impeds my posting is the lack of time. And I want to finish this fic. (Which will take several months given my current ideas) + finish the other ones I've started. Damn writer block!

I hear you Amy... it's amazing how long these things can take! I wanted to finish my fic for my one year fic anniversary, but it's not co-operating... sigh....

Having to do homework ruins every fic idea that gets into my head!

How about a fic about homework? I'm sure the Swallow has some...

Originally posted by Transmute Jun First of all, no one here makes rude comments. And if they did, I would send the Swans over to make them regret it. So there! And, your story is wonderful. There is nothing to criticize. We will not laugh at it but enjoy it. And if someone makes a comment or suggestion, it is because they want to help you make it better, NOT because they don't like it. Am I making sense? I thought had chased all of those voices away. Do I have to send in the ?

You are making sense. I can tell no one here would make rude comments about my fic, that is not the problem, it is trying to get over hearing the other criticisms and rude comments that I have a problem with. I have listened to them for so long and felt unworthy for so long, 20+ years, it is hard to stop listening to them. It is that.... if you hear "you are no good for long enough then you start to agree and feel that way" Dr. Phil of Oprah talk about. Does THAT make sense? Please do send the Condor he might be able to chase away those demons in my head.

Originally posted by Transmute Jun How about a fic about homework? I'm sure the Swallow has some...

Or how about Gatch Team gets too much homework to do and they no longer have the time to fight Gallactor! Of course, Ego is the teacher!

Originally posted by clouddancer yes I did, but like I said I try to "pretend" to ignore the requests. Although I am not sure how much longer I can. When I am at school I can say yes I am ready to post. As soon as I get home, where my computer and story are.... the fear returns. I hear the criticism and laughter of my classmates as they read and laugh at a story I wrote and left on my desk..... and see the rude comments they wrote all over it.

School friends can be the wrong, maybe those ones were insecure and had to pick on someone else to cover it up CD, did you ever think that maybe they were the ones who were afraid, afraid to try! We won't do that to you! Hold your head CD because your a WINNER!!!! CD I want you to look in the mirror every morning and say to yourself... "I'm feeling like a winner today,and everything I do shows that I am." And winners don't cave to cowards who have bring someone else down to make themselves look good... The Owl was a winner! He was on th SNT, even if his family never knew how good he really was! Damn I wish I could give you the DVD "The secret" to watch...The laws of attraction...

Originally posted by Ebonyswanne Damn I wish I could give you the DVD "The secret" to watch...The laws of attraction...

If you think I should watch it, what I can do is go look it up in the local video store. Of course with everything else I have going on I am not sure when I will have time.

Originally posted by clouddancer It is that.... if you hear "you are no good for long enough then you start to agree and feel that way" Dr. Phil of Oprah talk about. Does THAT make sense?

Yes, that does make sense. I have similar issues (with different things). But you have to remember that this si a SAFE environment. This is NOT your schooldesk where everyone can see. I don't think the voices have a registered account on Gatchamania.

Originally posted by clouddancer Please do send the Condor he might be able to chase away those demons in my head.

Okay. Here you go!

Originally posted by amyltrer

Originally posted by Transmute Jun How about a fic about homework? I'm sure the Swallow has some...

Or how about Gatch Team gets too much homework to do and they no longer have the time to fight Gallactor! Of course, Ego is the teacher!

Actually, SJ had a fic where the team went to G-Force high and Zoltar... uh... Ratloz... was the teacher....

Originally posted by Ebonyswanne CD I want you to look in the mirror every morning and say to yourself... "I'm feeling like a winner today,and everything I do shows that I am."

Oh... what was that SNL sketch? Stuart Smalley... I'm Good Enough, I'm Smart Enough, and Doggone It, People Like Me!

Wasn't it something like.."Daily Affirmations" I'm smart, yadayada...and people like me!

CD I wish we could take all your demons away and give back the confidence they took from you. We have liked your little exerpt and your poem, I can see no reason why any story you pst will be different. You have told us about the world you write in and it sounds fascinating and I would love to learn more and I am sure that many others here would like more too. TJ is an excellent Beta reader if you need that. Maybe share it through Im's/email with a couple of people first and if it helps after they give feedback post it in the library? It took a lot of encouragement for me to start writing and posting stories because I thought my were really bad and when I compare some now to other talented people on the site I still feel I have a little way to go to raise my game. In your case you have planned it out in so much detail, you give the impression that your alt universe is a big part of you and you experience it with them. I hope you find the courage to share some more of your work and look forward to the day when you can happily post things without those voices getting in the way. One of the things I did for a bully a while back in a class I taught was to get everyone to write a small story about something that made them sad and these were all read out. Even the bully had a sad story and in sharing that gave everyone an insight into how things said can hurt more than physical blows. As they say the pen is mightier than the sword! Know that we think you are great and we have every faith in you CD

Originally posted by Firebird CD I wish we could take all your demons away and give back the confidence they took from you. We have liked your little exerpt and your poem, I can see no reason why any story you pst will be different. You have told us about the world you write in and it sounds fascinating and I would love to learn more and I am sure that many others here would like more too. TJ is an excellent Beta reader if you need that. Maybe share it through Im's/email with a couple of people first and if it helps after they give feedback post it in the library? It took a lot of encouragement for me to start writing and posting stories because I thought my were really bad and when I compare some now to other talented people on the site I still feel I have a little way to go to raise my game. In your case you have planned it out in so much detail, you give the impression that your alt universe is a big part of you and you experience it with them. I hope you find the courage to share some more of your work and look forward to the day when you can happily post things without those voices getting in the way. One of the things I did for a bully a while back in a class I taught was to get everyone to write a small story about something that made them sad and these were all read out. Even the bully had a sad story and in sharing that gave everyone an insight into how things said can hurt more than physical blows. As they say the pen is mightier than the sword! Know that we think you are great and we have every faith in you CD

*sniffle* Thank you FB. Let me say all this encouragement is strengthening me each day. And hearing things like that makes me happy to have friends like you. I know I am in a safe, friendly environment and really do want to post. If it is not up tonight, it will be sometime tomorrow, over at the Clubhouse first.

Thanks for the Condor pics, TJ. I think I'm falling for him!

Originally posted by amyltrer Thanks for the Condor pics, TJ. I think I'm falling for him!

You THINK! I KNOW!!!!!!!!! Well that is after the Eagle I would fall for him.

CD, Condor is better than the Eagle. Even I can't figure a Codor bashing series. Forget that Condor-penguin stuff I did.

Originally posted by clouddancer I know I am in a safe, friendly environment and really do want to post. If it is not up tonight, it will be sometime tomorrow, over at the Clubhouse first.

Yay! We love you, CD, and I know everyone will love your story as much as I did!

Originally posted by amyltrer Thanks for the Condor pics, TJ. I think I'm falling for him!

Oh my... we have a live one! Everyone, get out your Condor shots! Amy is falling for our hottie!!!!!!!

TJ those were some really nice condor pics and this last one lmao!

BAWWWWWWHHHHAAAAHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Originally posted by Transmute Jun Oh my... we have a live one! Everyone, get out your Condor shots! Amy is falling for our hottie!!!!!!!

Well, Ego will awlays be the first!!!!! Albeit I won't mind some Condor picces here and there!

Whoo hoo! Amy has been converted to the dark side! Let's see what I can find for you, Amy...

Thankee TJ....... ohhh, he looks soo much like Ego in the last one..... If I could just color him blue.....

So.... the blue on the 'slab' isn't enough for you?

No, I want him all blue...... and on the slab ......

Uh... amy... 'on the slab' in the US ia a euphemism for being in the morgue... i.e. being dead. Are you sure you want Ego on the slab? Although, I'm sure that's where the Eagle would want him...

Originally posted by Transmute Jun Uh... amy... 'on the slab' in the US ia a euphemism for being in the morgue... i.e. being dead. Are you sure you want Ego on the slab? Although, I'm sure that's where the Eagle would want him...

Hell, no!!!! Not figuratively! See, that's why I'm after the Condor now. He looks better on a slab.......

Tj are you trying to convert Amy to the birdie side as oppose to the baddie one?

Is that possible FB????????

Originally posted by Firebird Tj are you trying to convert Amy to the birdie side as oppose to the baddie one?

Am I that subtle? Hell, yes!!!!! I figured it was darn obvious!!!! (Psssst... Amy.... subliminal message.... )

Well the Condor would suit her he does have that bad boy allure about him!

Originally posted by Transmute Jun

Originally posted by Firebird Tj are you trying to convert Amy to the birdie side as oppose to the baddie one?

Am I that subtle? Hell, yes!!!!! I figured it was darn obvious!!!! (Psssst... Amy.... subliminal message.... )

OMG, there's something wrong with my eyes! I'm seeing those smiles blue..... that means Ego must try Condor's birdstyle too

ROTFL, Amy!!!!! Does that mean we're going to get another art piece from you, like the Ego in Eagle costume you did?

Originally posted by Transmute Jun ROTFL, Amy!!!!! Does that mean we're going to get another art piece from you, like the Ego in Eagle costume you did?

Cloud wants to see this!

Originally posted by Transmute Jun ROTFL, Amy!!!!! Does that mean we're going to get another art piece from you, like the Ego in Eagle costume you did?

What do I see here? Am I getting you corrupted over Ego?

Originally posted by clouddancer

Originally posted by Transmute Jun ROTFL, Amy!!!!! Does that mean we're going to get another art piece from you, like the Ego in Eagle costume you did?

Cloud wants to see this!

Umm, okay......#Amy pushes the pile of books, papers, mecha blueprints away and diggs for her pencils#......#crash, thud, groan#.... That might take a while

I don't remember where it was posted... Ooh, I found them! [/quote]

Here's a new one. It's lame because I had no time to do the details of their uniform!

Ohh, TJ you've digged after my old Ego piccies.....

I guess even in Joe's shirt, Ego doesn't want Jun's coking! Now we know why Ego prefers Amy!

Nahhh, my cooking is just that bad.

Originally posted by amyltrer Ohh, TJ you've digged after my old Ego piccies.....

Yes, I found them on Gatchaman Archives.

Originally posted by amyltrer Nahhh, my cooking is just that bad.

Yes, I heard about your pavlova!!!!

Originally posted by Transmute Jun

Originally posted by amyltrer Nahhh, my cooking is just that bad.

Yes, I heard about your pavlova!!!!

Yup, that's not a thing I'm proud of!

Originally posted by amyltrer

Originally posted by Transmute Jun

Originally posted by amyltrer Nahhh, my cooking is just that bad.

Yes, I heard about your pavlova!!!!

Yup, that's not a thing I'm proud of!

I think it would make Jun proud!

Still I think I'm over Jun's cooking level. I can do sallads and eatable fried potatoes ! And even some cookies! My BF said they were good! I don't think he'd have dared to say something else......

But if he ate them, that says a lot!!!!

I guess it was under threatening. I was really annoyed hor having to cook those and BF knows not to push me further!

Originally posted by amyltrer Still I think I'm over Jun's cooking level. I can do sallads and eatable fried potatoes ! And even some cookies! My BF said they were good! I don't think he'd have dared to say something else......

I have and Eagle and Swan cooking experience in a ficcie that has not been posted yet...it won't be for a while She burned a Pavlova! that is blasphemy...how could you that to our national desert! Well you will have to try it again...I want a piccie of the end result... Ebonys virtual cooking Pavlova classes start soon...

WTG Ebony!!!! I'll be there!!!!

Erm... not to sound like a total doofus...but I can't help it...what is pavlova? I've deduced that it is something sweet...

I didn't know either. Ebony told me. It's a meringue layer in a pan, with cream and berries on top.

Oh, that sounds sooooo yummy!!!

It is the Aussi national dessert. Basically a meringue with fruit chunks on top. I got something like a pile of ashes when I pulled it out from the oven!

Originally posted by Springie Erm... not to sound like a total doofus...but I can't help it...what is pavlova? I've deduced that it is something sweet...

I can't believe you guys have never heard of it! After all isn't chocolate cake the (especially chocolate mud cake) the American thing? It is as common as that over here... It is great for A BBQ in a hot summers day...and Christmas wouldn't be the same without a Pavlova for desert! Ebony put on her chefs hat and heads for the kitchen...

I'm waiting for my piece, Ebony!!!

Me, too!!

Ebony looks for a virtual pavlova

Sooooo..... Ebony.... I have to admit that I am not a fan of whipped cream. How would it be if I used chocolate mousse instead of whipped/flavored cream? Is that a total no-no?

Did you do that Ebony? Ohh, it looks so much better than my poor chared attempt!

Originally posted by Transmute Jun Sooooo..... Ebony.... I have to admit that I am not a fan of whipped cream. How would it be if I used chocolate mousse instead of whipped/flavored cream? Is that a total no-no?

That sounds like it would be great TJ. Or how about ice cream Ebony? Could I use that?